Ciao Amici! I hope you are doing well on this fine Monday and that it is sunny where you are. Here, it’s another rainy day…
Mondays are hard for me. I usually start my day dreading getting out of bed, probably due to lack of sleep from the night before. Let’s say I spend my Sunday in a state of constant Smonday. The pre-week anxiety is real and if I’m being honest, draining.
Then Monday hits me like a ton of bricks and all I can dream about is a vacation and escaping to a faraway place, only to realize a vacation is nowhere near.
I started blogging because on Monday I often find myself dreaming and remembering my travels. The Monday Blues are real and so hard to deal with sometimes. So instead of digging my folders for pictures, I decided to start collecting pictures and memories on a virtual travel journal. After a few months of writing, I realized the information I was collecting on my trips could help someone who was interested in traveling to the same destinations I have been to. In some ways, writing travel posts about Italy (and Italian food) also helps me keep my memories of home alive.
But writing a blog isn’t easy and to be honest I might not be cut out for it. Often I don’t have time for it or can’t find things to write about. At least not things you might find interesting… I could write for days about yoga, K-dramas, BTS, culture shock, or of all the times I mispronounce an English word. But I don’t think you would be interested in ready that kind of stuff.
After 2 years of blogging, I still find the writing process very challenging; specifically when considering the difficulty of writing in a second language. What’s even worse is realizing you struggle writing in your native language because now you only think in English. So why do I keep blogging, you ask?
For one, it keeps my brain active. It challenges me to break those language barriers. With the help of my loyal editor (shout-out to my dear husband), I also get to learn a little more about English grammar and composition. Things I never got a chance to learn in college, because I was too busy sweating it out in the studio and discussing assigned readings about Descartes, Freud, St. Augustine, and Camus (just to name a few). How I managed to graduate without frying my brain is still a mystery!
Blogging is also my biggest creative outlet. Growing up, dance was my biggest creative outlet and refuge. I would spend hours in the studio learning, dancing, and experimenting. It slowly took up so much of the daily life that I allow it to become my identity. While in college, I realized that there was so much out there I had not experienced because I was so focused on training. Since graduating, I’ve made it a point to try new things. To pick up new hobbies and creative outlets; knowing that my identity does not depend on one thing alone.
But I would be lying if I didn’t say blogging puts pressure on me. I am the kind of person who commits one hundred percent to a task… so not having as much time as I wish to invest in this blog frustrates me sometimes.
I feel a sense of responsibility towards you guys, my readers, to create more content, or at least update you on what is going on. And not being able to fulfill that responsibility, or to let you down…. it’s not pleasant, to say the least. At the same time, it wouldn’t be fair to you if I started writing content just for the sake of posting something. I would be wasting your time. And I know how valuable time is. **Insert quality vs. quantity paradox here.** You know where I’m going with this, don’t you?
I want to keep sharing content with you, but I want to do it in a way that doesn’t feel like a chore. I’ll still try my best to post my Travel Thursday post on the first Thursday of the month because that really seems to work and I still have a lot of planned posts. But other than that, we’re just going to play it by ear. If you wish to be notified every time I post, you can subscribe to my newsletter by filling out the form to the right of this screen.
If you are still reading, I really appreciate it. This is quite the lengthy post! Thank you for still sticking with me after these long two years. Thank you for your feedback, and for supporting. I truly mean it. And if you are new, thank you for allowing me to connect with you.
So here’s to more posts to come and many more memories to share without a set schedule. Thank you for being patient with me.
All my love to you,